Every year I begin again...on January 1.
By about the 3rd, I have given up...again....
This year I want that to change...because it is time.
Health has now become an issue....I could die if I do not change.
Now comes the How to do it without giving up once again.
I have many good reasons this year to succeed.
There is a wedding of my Niece in July.
The Family Chat Reunion in August.
My Health improving.
Feeling better.
Liking myself again.
Moving, breathing, bending, stretching.
Ok, so I was reaching a bit on the last one...literally and figuratively too.
This is a pep talk to me....
I have all the tools, now I must implement them....so I won't die...
High Blood pressure which can be controlled by losing some weight...
So this year, as never before, tis time to take care of me...to Love me
while I still can...and because I am worth it.
Hugs Katie
From Katie
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Monday, January 03, 2005
Moving Forward
I must admit I just wrote for about 15 minutes and didn't get it saved.
Guess I have forgotten how to Blog!
That is ok, what I said was mostly to myself...so I will not repeat it but will use it in my lil brain to move on.
:)
I have a sense of Humor.
Where would I be without it? I fear I would not be alive...for there are days that it is all that separates me from craziness or a permanent stay in a square padded room somewhere.
Do they still have those? So many things are not even around anymore.....lol
I was wondering the other day about where I got my wicked sense of humor from and why I am always working so dilegently to make others laugh.
Perhaps it is because I need to laugh desperately to get through the day.
Things stopped being funny somewhere along the line. I do not remember this happening...or when it did. I only know that I cannot let it continue...I need humor and laughter and joy, yes joy....laughing till it hurts kind of humor. Forgetting the real world kind....for there are things in real life that are just too much to bear without having a laugh now and then.
That is why I go to a chat room daily. I wandered into this room some time ago now and have managed to meet some of the funniest, loving, kind and remarkable people from all over the world. These folks have made my life make sense when it would not. They make me laugh when I want to cry. They can also listen and let me cry when I need to do so.
People might think that such a room or spending time there is a waste of one's time...but I beg to differ. I have seen people come in feeling blue leave with a smile. This is a miracle and I love those people I have come to know with a love that will not end, even if those people move on in Life and do not return to the chat room.
This morning I was having a typical Monday morning...and was feeling a bit sorry for myself...feeling this way for who know what reason...things sometime just don't need reasons.
Anyway, my point is this: I went to have coffee with those folks and came away with a gift from one of them. The gift was this reminder to Blog. It has changed my attitude toward the day.
Now if nothing else happens, I will have this writing to my credit....and I will have enjoyed reading another persons writings as well.
I also was given another gift just from going to get the mail at the post office.
I ended up going up there 3 times....on ice....walking.....getting a laugh at my own forgetfulness as I laid my car keys down on the counter instead of putting them in my pocket. I had to return 2 times to the post office...once to return some books I had not ordered nor needed....and the second to pick up said keys.
Through doing so, I met and greeted several more folks I would not have seen...plus I received some music in the mail from another dear friend I met online.
So here it is shortly after noon and I feel I have had a good day!! Anything else that happens will be frosting on the cake!
I also have been listening to music instead of the horrors of the happenings in the world.
Sometimes Knowledge is not power, its pain.
Knowing I control that connection to the outside world made me feel better too.
In closing, I suppose this Blog has no real literary value other than to let me express myself on what was to be another Blue Monday. Now I have managed to turn it into a not so Blue Monday.
I thank those people who helped. I will do my best to pay it forward to help someone else.
Its all any of us can do!
We can see the glass as half full or half empty. More and more, I plan and choose to see that glass become full again!
Hugs till the next time we chat....
Hug someone today, you get as much as you give!
Katie
Guess I have forgotten how to Blog!
That is ok, what I said was mostly to myself...so I will not repeat it but will use it in my lil brain to move on.
:)
I have a sense of Humor.
Where would I be without it? I fear I would not be alive...for there are days that it is all that separates me from craziness or a permanent stay in a square padded room somewhere.
Do they still have those? So many things are not even around anymore.....lol
I was wondering the other day about where I got my wicked sense of humor from and why I am always working so dilegently to make others laugh.
Perhaps it is because I need to laugh desperately to get through the day.
Things stopped being funny somewhere along the line. I do not remember this happening...or when it did. I only know that I cannot let it continue...I need humor and laughter and joy, yes joy....laughing till it hurts kind of humor. Forgetting the real world kind....for there are things in real life that are just too much to bear without having a laugh now and then.
That is why I go to a chat room daily. I wandered into this room some time ago now and have managed to meet some of the funniest, loving, kind and remarkable people from all over the world. These folks have made my life make sense when it would not. They make me laugh when I want to cry. They can also listen and let me cry when I need to do so.
People might think that such a room or spending time there is a waste of one's time...but I beg to differ. I have seen people come in feeling blue leave with a smile. This is a miracle and I love those people I have come to know with a love that will not end, even if those people move on in Life and do not return to the chat room.
This morning I was having a typical Monday morning...and was feeling a bit sorry for myself...feeling this way for who know what reason...things sometime just don't need reasons.
Anyway, my point is this: I went to have coffee with those folks and came away with a gift from one of them. The gift was this reminder to Blog. It has changed my attitude toward the day.
Now if nothing else happens, I will have this writing to my credit....and I will have enjoyed reading another persons writings as well.
I also was given another gift just from going to get the mail at the post office.
I ended up going up there 3 times....on ice....walking.....getting a laugh at my own forgetfulness as I laid my car keys down on the counter instead of putting them in my pocket. I had to return 2 times to the post office...once to return some books I had not ordered nor needed....and the second to pick up said keys.
Through doing so, I met and greeted several more folks I would not have seen...plus I received some music in the mail from another dear friend I met online.
So here it is shortly after noon and I feel I have had a good day!! Anything else that happens will be frosting on the cake!
I also have been listening to music instead of the horrors of the happenings in the world.
Sometimes Knowledge is not power, its pain.
Knowing I control that connection to the outside world made me feel better too.
In closing, I suppose this Blog has no real literary value other than to let me express myself on what was to be another Blue Monday. Now I have managed to turn it into a not so Blue Monday.
I thank those people who helped. I will do my best to pay it forward to help someone else.
Its all any of us can do!
We can see the glass as half full or half empty. More and more, I plan and choose to see that glass become full again!
Hugs till the next time we chat....
Hug someone today, you get as much as you give!
Katie
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